i am not the only one who has to deal with the decisions i make.
the decisions to be rude, or mean, or to not forgive, or to be so unhappy and miserable, or to dwell on the negative.
maybe there are a lot of decisions i could have made that would have made my life a lot easier. but they also would have meant i wouldn’t have gotten to experience life to it’s fullest, i wouldn’t have grown, i wouldn’t have known what real love actually felt like.
i would take all of the pain and heartache in the world if it meant i could keep what i have and what i’ve been given. i would go through every hurt and painful thing imaginable if it meant i got to keep the true love i’ve been given in my life.
i would die a thousand deaths if it meant my actions would never hurt another person.
especially the person i’ve chosen to spend the rest of my life with.
i would live in the middle of nowhere, without a posession to my name, not knowing a soul – if it meant i got to spend the rest of my life with john halsey.
these things are true. and these are the things in my life i’m going to choose to focus on.