sometimes john runs an errand that should take any normal person about an hour…
and sometimes when i’ve tried to call him fifteen times and he doesn’t answer, and it’s an hour and a half later, i kind of start to freak out.
and sometimes he calls me back and says “oh sorry. i haven’t had any cell phone service and i just now got your voicemails…”
and sometimes… as i hang up the phone in anger, i realize i’ve been close to tears for at least thirty minutes… and i realize that i’ve never loved someone like this in my whole life.
and sometimes things like that make me feel so vulnerable.