i grew up in a house where if you couldn’t sleep, you might have unconfessed sin in your life.
if you didn’t have money, you probably didn’t tithe.
if things didn’t work out, it was because there was something way better in store.
if you told a lie, you better be scared about what was going to happen.
if someone talked shit about you, you should figure they probably have something bad going on in their own life.
maybe, just maybe, it makes life a little bit easier to believe these things and live by the “rules” of the bible.
but what do you do when you’re caught in the middle and you don’t know how much of life is “planned” and how much of it is determined by… absolutely nothing?
what do you do when you want to stand up for yourself because no one else is ever going to?
i guess i just wish i could figure it out…
and stop beating myself up for never tithing.
the way you grow up affects you no matter how hard you try not to let it.