i don’t think it should just “be that way”.
i refuse to believe that 57 weeks later, this is normal.
maybe i haven’t experienced what you have… maybe this is already “old news” for you…
but i happen to believe that it should be an exciting, thrilling, butterfly-inducing adventure for a while longer.
everything is still exciting for me, every feeling still has that “brand new” coating…
it hurts a little more every day when i can see i enjoy it more than you;
when i can see i want it more than you.
when i know i’m not just “going through the motions”.
you’ve done this before, you know how it ends.
we could at least use some honesty here.
it sucks to know you’re the only one hurting and affected by decisions you didn’t even make…
and i’m scared of the decisions i am about to make.